yes! i’m free! judge me!

im having fun!! like this life is fun as fuck. be yourself everyone. don’t gaf what anyone else thinks. like waittt like i’m literally free 🙂 i don’t need everyone to like me or think i’m cool anymore. like there is no conformity that will ever satisfy everyone. and i’m REALLY realizing that there is no version of conformity that will ever free you from judgement. that people are going to judge me no matter what the fuck i do. free. i’m free. like judge me i don’t care anymore please fucking judge me. whatever!

i think the freedom is in realizing that the people who see me for who i am & like me in my fullness need no convincing. in the right environment, around the right people.. you will never have to convince anyone of who you are. the right people see u and appreciate u with the messy and authentic complexity of who you are. I feel like i’m finally letting go of the complete waste of energy that is trying to get everyone to like me. like why am i trying to be ‘for’ everyone. .. i don’t even respect half the people i meet. why am I trying to get people who I don’t even fucking respect, whose lives I would not want to trade with ..to like me! like what! If the price i pay for being valued for who I am in my authentic fullness is having people think i’m weird or too much, then I am so completely okay with that. like please, if you think i’m weird or too much, respectfully get the fuck away from me! lol! you are not for me! and i am not for you! i like my life! so exit! go bother other people with your shame and scrutiny! like that is a small ass price to pay for a fulfilling environment and life. if I ever feel like i’m only being valued for a part of me, or an idealized/perfect version of me,.. that person or environment is straight up not for me. I don’t want anything in my orbit that does not value me in my fullness. amen. good night.