listening to energy

Something I am becoming more aware of is listening to my own energy. Not just in something like a social setting, or physical energy.. but more in an intuitive way. I have a habit of trying to force a certain mood on myself at times.. whether it be happiness or excitement… which I think is certainly a good little tool mostly because I think it’s important to remember that we are in control of how we choose to feel and be. But I think what I am getting better at is utilizing these tools to be mentally and emotionally operant but frommmm and in tandem with the natural flow of my energy.

If I wake up a certain day and feel energetically slow.. you know, maybe I have been social quite a bit recently and am feeling drained, maybe I choose to identify this slowness as my natural energy state and just allow it to be present. I can choose to exist happily in my slowness. In my quiet time. I think sometimes we choose to ignore these signals after bouts of social activity because we’re told we need to be or feel super excited or outwardly happy and energetic at all times. But I think for me, learning to move with my natural energy and natural flow from social energy expenditure to quiet time with myself in slow recharge is the balance.. the little dance I do where I just let my own energy and awareness of myself dictate the intensity. All based on awareness, and need. It doesn’t mean choosing to be quieter or have a ‘duller life’ per say, but more like being observant when I stray to far from my inner sense of grounding and peace after a lot of socializing… and then acknowledging and actually moving and flowing with these feelings of slowness instead of fighting them by trying to force a mindset.